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Solitude.

I like to keep to myself sometimes and just…enjoy the solitude and quiet.

I used to think that I did not need that time alone because my girls were still so small back then, and I knew I needed to be there for them 24/7. But ever since my girls started schooling, I am learning to appreciate my time alone all the more, even if it’s for only four hours daily. Better than nothing and therefore, I am still thankful.

Daddy asked me this question yesterday,

“Cua, you seem so quiet these days. Do you have a lot of problems? Or are you stressed out?”

I admit, I think too much over every single thing. I am such a worrier, and that really irritates me! But I am never the kind to share my problems with anyone, not even with my own husband sometimes. I appreciate the fact that he leaves me alone when the need arises. I know it’s not exactly healthy to contain my worries or whatsoever but in my defense, I will say this; why bother others with my problems? They have their own problems to worry about too.

BUT…

I like to think that every problem always has a solution, and nothing is ever impossible. I am such a positive person, it scares me sometimes too.

“Every problem has a gift for you in its hands.”

So yeah, that will not stop me from being a worrier. Good or bad, you think?

HAHA!

You know, when my mind is too overwhelmed with thoughts on things that I need to do or my persistent worries for instance, mental clutter occurs. And when that happens, I can barely do anything right.  Cannot blog. Cannot think. Cannot function. Disastrous, right?

I know.

Whenever I get to be alone for a few hours daily, I can think better. I can be more focused. I can clear my mental clutter. I am more productive. I am better able to view things objectively. I reduce unnecessary distractions. I get the inspiration to blog!

And I can also go to the gym! To work out a bit, and then pose for the camera like this.

HAHAHA!

No wonder I am taking this long to reach my ideal weight.

Oh well, easy does it.

I guess after 31 years of my existence, I am still finding every opportunity to get to know myself better.

Whatever it is, I just hope that I will not scare myself too much along the way.

And if all else fails, I know I will always have my girls to give me all the strength I need to get up and try again.

 

Love them more than life itself. <3

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